HULA everyone!
hahas at fnn now.
so bored so decided to come and post.

and i think im so STRONG.
i did not drip a tear today.
i smiled the whole day =)
and for your information, it came from my heart.

hahas last time, i thought that i would not survive.
but.. i didnt know i would feel so relaxed.
i slept so well at night.
coz i dont have to wake up n look at my hp all the time.

it has only been the 2nd day.
but i feel alright.
i cant belief it too o.O
LOL

friends are rly great.
now im soo happy that school end so late everyday.
coz i can keep myself busy and forget all the misery.
but as i said, there's memories of you everywhere.

im kinda cheating myself -.-
lol.
but i rly wanna be happy.
coz i know i deserve to smile =)

btw, misstan talk to me just now.
and she said something that made me feel real GOOD.
LOL.
HAHAHAHA.

now, we are like 最熟悉的陌生人.
its such a strange feeling ):
but i'll get over it !
hahas.

I MUST BE HAPPY =DD

woke up early in the morning.
still cant belief it actually happened.
but i didnt cry.

looked at our pictures.
so blissful, so happy.
suddenly, tears welled up my eyes.
i know its gonna take a long time.

when i see all my tags, tears welled up my eyes again.
thanks to all my friends la.
love you all <3
so happy that ppl still care.

i rly hope i'll be fine in sch tmr.
rly hope i'll be fine.
im trying very very hard!
everywhere i go, it reminds me of you.

its over.
between you n me.
but its alright.
i'll get over it. i'll be stronger.

i wont be a pathetic little girl waiting for you.
i already did my best for you.
put in all my effort.
but nvm, i know i'll be better without you.

it will all get better in time.
although i still love you.
it may take a long time.
but i know my frens will be there for me.

thanks.
bel, nick, chunfeng, yingting, siti, mel, jiajia, yingying, yvonne, ali, yuenchai.
thks for ur concern !
im glad :DD

daliang, thks for ur help.
i know you've been trying to help.
but he just wont listen :)
thks so much for accompanying me today.

you are still very impt to me.
but its your loss.
not mine :)
thats what everyone tells me.
hahas.

I'LL BE STRONGER.
help me dear frens :DD

you changed alot.
everybody said so.
all the best to you.
takecare.

i'll always rmb the sweet yaoyao who loves me.
the yaoyao who cares about me.
the yaoyao who will always be there for me.
our 16mths memories.

but i wont love the yaoyao now anymore.
i will forget you.
i will.

this is ONLY the third day after sch reopened.
OMG zz.
i just reached home after a totally hectic day.
and i had the urge to come and post though i was really tired.
olvls is coming in like 4months time & we have remedials everyday.

monday: f&n till 5pm.
tuesday: chem/physics until 4.30pm
wednesday: chem/ss/history until 5.30pm
thursday: emaths till abt 5pm
friday: english/hmt until 3pm
saturday: emaths from 8am - 12pm

argh. i totally hate it.
but i know its necessary preparation la.
so bottled up with emotions.
):

IMISSYOU.
i really really miss dear.
i rly love you.
i rly do.

i wanna go back to the starting.
when everything was so perfect.
but good things wont last.
i want you to be like last time.

i miss the old you.
):
hais.
i've no one to turn to.
nobody can help me.

im so tired.
i hate to cry.
its scary the way i feel.
i would do anything just to be with you always.
iloveyoumorethanilovemyself.

.emevaeltnod

伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心还想着你

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择

nice song..
and my com is crazy.
sometimes can on sometimes cannot.
tsk.

forgiving is so easy.
its an easy word.
but forgetting is hard.
there will always be a scar there.


& sometimes i wonder why im in this world.
in this ugly world?
with so many crimes, murders, fightings.
such a scary world.
even if you are born a pure innocent person, by the time u die, all the innocence are gone.


why do we give in 100percent, and always get back less than 50percent?
maybe not all of us, maybe just me.
i thought we are supposed to get back the amount of effort that we put in.
its just so unfair.


the world is just so unfair.
if i had a chance to choose, i would rather not be me.
i would want to be a person less emotional, more rational and less forgiving.
i would rather ppl dislike me.
coz its my life.


you will nvr listen to what i say ba.
i guess its like that.
to everyone, im just a nice person.
coz u know i always will be here for u, nvr ever will i run away.

dont wanna tear anymore..

imu.

Happy 16mths anni baby ~

16mths is not long, but its not short too.
hope you will treasure me ya?
i've done my very best.

ilu.

dear bought this pig piggy bank for me :)

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TO YOU:
hais.
im so disappointed in you.
im trying to help you and you dont want to help yourself.
and you give me such a bad attitude.
ya im so unimportant right.
okay thats good.
i also have feelings.
if you hurt me and i nvr say anything.
it doesn't mean that im alright!
okay? im rly hurt.
always there for you, but its like when u need me den u find me.
dont need me den what? throw me aside?

TO: YOU ALL

& do i always give ppl the impression that im so weak and everything?
am i so good to bully and be criticised?
i dunno.
so what if i dont show my feelings out?
it doesnt mean that IM NOT HURT.
its just that i dont want to hurt our relationships okay.

do u understand friends?
why dont i see you all criticising other ppl?
why isit always me?

dont give excuses like ' coz they wan bu qi, ni wan de qi ma. '
yeah like shit la.
ya and i know im not tall im short.
so isit my fault?

should i go hang myself for this flaw?
did i give ppl the wrong impression that im a person that you can-suan-and-make-fun of and you can just go on like this forever?
i know u all are playful.
but there's a limit to everything u know?

i hate it.
my fault?
i've rly tried hard to please everyone.
but i think i shouldnt anymore.
whats the use of being so nice to you?
when ppl dont even treasure u.

actually, i think im pathetic.
always being SO nice to everyone.
even if its not my fault i still continue to smile.
and everything.

fk.
i miss mel !
she's in genting ):

tdy had emaths lesson w mrkoh in the early morning.

he's gonna kill me x)





so exhausted recently.
8am - 5pm almost everyday.

HAPPY BDAY XAVIER huang zhen hao!
its time to grow up and stop being so childish k.
hahas.

today had f&n lessons. (yeah, again..)
went to 303 coffeeshop to so-called clb his bday n had lunch.
they are all so funny la.
there's me, eechen, yingting, xavier, lik, teng, daniel.
after that brian came to join us.


those boys :)
daniel's blocked by lik. lol
kinda blur photo.
btw, me n eechen totally agree that teng's every action is cute. lol

kinda frustrated now. so decided to come up and post.
I RLY HATE THIS SCHOOL HOLIDAY.
its not even a school holiday.
they should just write on the holiday timetable, CURRICULUM TIME.

go to sch everyday till 5pm.
and i mean EVERYDAY!

went out ytd w dear (like finallyyy).
the last time i met him was on monday morning.
met for 2hrs.
and the last last time was last thurs.

anw, we went to watch Chronicles of Narnia: Prince caspian (nice!)
reached home at 10PM.
mom also scream at me.
i did not reach home at bloody 12AM!
she said i cannot go out anymore.

I DONT CARE REALLY.
everyday go school, go out one day also cannot?
NEXT MON GOT CLASS OUTING & i wanna go.
but i dno whether she'll allow.

and btw next wk is supposed to be a resting wk for all sec 4s.
f&n is such a time eater ! zz
but u know what? still must come back for f&n !

this holiday like meet dear 1 wk at most 2 times only.
each time also not for very long okay.
WALAOS IM SO ANGRY NOW LA.
and dear also have to work work work.

den when im free, he got work.
when im not free, he never work.
WTH LAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!
and just when i feel im becoming more independent, im getting depressed again.

argh nvm.
anw jus feeling so depressed now.
mel called me go out i also cant.
coz got f&n.

when i have free time, also cnt go anywhere.
I JUST FEEL LIKE KILLING SOMEONE NOW.

having strange illnesses this few days ):
dno whats wrong with my body again.
tmr got mrkoh's emaths lesson AGAIN.
from 8 - 12.

and teng's going to japan tonight~
lol he's reluctant to go.
i wanna go SO MUCH, to view the beautiful scenery.
to get away from this hectic holiday.
anw bon voyage! =D

and i miss dear so muchhhhh =(
haix.

i don't cry for no reason.
im rly hurt.
rly rly rly hurt.
i don't want to feel insignificant.
its been so long already.
and im still not being acknowledged??
i rly dno.
i hope im just thinking too much.
nth can describe how i feel.
i can just cry. it doesn't mean that if i stop crying, im feeling okay already. its already imprinted in my heart.

today we had the f&n olvl practical exam.

COOK COOK COOK :D
lol.
we are supposed to cook very healthy things :)

i cooked:

1. Chicken soup
2. Mushroom Pasta
3. Broccoli with minced chicken and corn sauce
4. Stir fried mushrooms with celery
5. Buttermilk pancakes with blueberry sauce.



lol think my broccoli turned abit yellow cause i soaked it for too long >.<>think my pasta looked kinda disgusting but i ate it for dinner k ! and its not bad :D lol.

i practiced my pancakes for 2days!
& i love it. lol

its a heart shape!! :D
it may not look rly appealing but its my effort lol.


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read huahyun's blog.
and there's 50 things you learn from korean dramas:



5) You're allowed to make u-turns wherever you want in Korea. And there is never traffic on the side you want to u-turn to.


6) There is a super quick payment device that allows you to pay a bill quickly enough for a guy to run immediately out of a restaurant after his angry girlfriend storms out.


7) Everyone has cancer.


23) Everyone always goes to the same hospital no matter where they are.


27) If you're saving someone from being hit from a car, you'll push them out of the way and wait for the car to hit you instead. couldnt be more true, theyre like a deer in headlights


28) Everyone has a long lost sister/brother/twin. Usually one they didn't know about.


29) If you don't want to answer your phone, you can just turn it off. The battery needs to be taken out.



31) If you're in a relationship, you must at one point leave and have your lover tearfully come RIGHT before you board the plane. 60% of the time you see each other, the other 40% you're roaming around in circles and pass each other about six times, but miraculously never see them.


SO TRUE! LOL.
damn funny.
but korean dramas are nice :D


think i've become more independent now :)
happy happy ~

I MISS U SO MUCH DEAR!
this few weeks gonna be so busy ):
mwas miss ya lots.